Maternity leave coming to an end..

Last night feeding Tristan around 3am, I realized that he was born 6 weeks ago almost to the minute....this marked my thinking yet again that my time with him is really over. I know that Ive done this before( go back to work after 6 weeks) but it doesnt get easier Ive decided. These last 6 weeks have been really hard with him. With the colic and not sleeping we have really just been surviving. I havent really been able to enjoy him all the much which is really sad. He is just starting to smile and on the rare occassion he is happy I get such a rush of love for my little man....
I just wish I could be around to see his mood improve and see the smiles more and more.
Work starts monday and I am grateful to be returning to people that I enjoy working with, and a company and job I like, but there isnt anything that will make that day easier. Being a mom is so hard, but is the most amazing thing. I took out Elijiahs home videos last night to remember him as a baby and was amazed at each stage, not like you forget perse, but time passes so FAST! It will be the same with Tristan and I dont want to miss a second of it. These boys( Jonathan included here ) that I have been blessed with, make my life complete in a way that I never thought possible. And so today being Friday and Monday will come too quickly, Im going to enjoy this beautiful weather and my two munchkins as much as possible over the next couple of days.

A few new pictures...

Since we are still in our house, I couldnt let another summer go by without giving Elijiah something to do in the backyard...now its not the Costco one that I would LoVe, but it works! Jonathan and his Dad spent all day last Saturday putting it together and having some good dad/son time. Thanks you guys!!!! Its great to send the boy outside and see him and the neighborhood friends playing.

Can you believe it?! Look at our BOY! He is getting so big..the newborn phase is quickly going....Hes quite handsome just like his Daddy if I do say so myself!

Mission Call

Went up to Ogden earlier this week to have dinner and be with my brother when he opened his mission call. Here he is opening the letter...and he is going to South Africa!!!( leaving at the end of September)

He is totally stoked (a little sad he wont be learning a language) but like wise S.A. holds a special place in all our hearts. My grandparents were born and raised there. My mom was jumping up and down so excited for Cory and immediately said that she wants to go and pick him up when his is done. I dont know why but I got a little teary upon hearing he was going there. This is going to be great for my brother. Congratulations Cory...Im super happy for you!!!!

Swimsuit and stuff

Isnt this the funniest picture?!!!! Tristan has improved significantly on his sleeping but this is because Ive given up trying to put him in his bassinet. I tend to keep him on my person and he will take a decent nap in the afternoon. Here he is in the front pack fast asleep. I LOVE IT!! haha.

Dont you just LOVE this swimsuit? Okay so Jonathan was down with me getting something that I would feel comfortable in as my bikinis just werent post prego friendly.

However this one was WAY beyond my budget but we found one on Ebay that was cheaper than the regular price and I bought it. I was SO excited when it came and I rushed to try it on. Now I have always bought my swimsuits online so I was totally disappointed to find that my top half doesnt quite fit this suit all that well....Im hoping my mother and her mad sewing skills can help out with that problem so I can keep it.

I cant say that much is happening around here these days. Just surviving each new day, taking my daily run, and hanging out. With my goal to get Tristan to sleep as much as possible-all my lofty plans of cooking and baking, cleaning and staying on top of it all is going by the way side.

Formula for sale!

Hey all! Anyone interested in buying some formula?( or know someone?)We thought we would be smart and stock up before Tristan was born, but with him on Nutramigen now we have these cans we need to sell( stores wont let us exchange or return). Anyway let me know- I would love to get some cash for these so I can buy our kid some food!

My belated answers babes...

So as you of all people know hon, this week has been BONKERS but I apologize for the late response to this nonetheless!

Our first lunch date was at the Aves Bakery. What was your first impression of me when we met?

Well Amber-dear, as you remember, we had some really amazingly candid and thoughtful email communications and phone conversations before we met so I already had a pretty good idea of what your personality would be like. I had already seen a lot of pictures of you as well so I thought that I was pretty prepared for our first meeting. I wore my favorite shirt, my favorite beenie, hot-guy cologne, and was prepared to make you immediately infatuated with me employing a false attitude of casual indifference mixed with a heavy dose of charm.

Well, the best laid plans of man oft go to waste... I walked in, saw you sitting in the far corner with a newspaper played out before you and a very sexy look of astute relaxation and BAM, all my game flew away to nothingness and I couldn't help but grin like a big dopey dwebe. If you recall, I was so flustered I had to immediately excuse myself to the restroom even though I really didn't HAVE to go...

I remember that you wore a reddish/maroon lightweight wool sweater with a V-cut front, your glasses, and had your wonderful curly hair down. I thought to myself, "this girl is WAY too put together" and had a really hard time getting comfortable the rest of the date. As we chatted, I continued to get more and more nervous as I realized how sharp, passionate, STRIKING, and on the ball you were but I did my best to impress in spite of my intimidation.

In all reality babes, although I now know that I need not be intimidated by you, all those things I felt as first impressions were in fact characteristics that you posess. The great impressions I had about you at first glance still remain and have only been added upon by characteristics that amaze me every single day... Not even your habit of stomping around the house like a marine in bootcamp early on Saturday mornings has tarnished my impression of you!

~hubbabubba

My day has begun

Jonathan has been pretty busy this week and Ive come to realize that there is no way he could leave me with Tristan alone at this point even for a day. Ive also discovered due to Tristans colic or whatever problem he has-- sleep will most likely never happen in THIS house. With occassional exception, he rarely will sleep more than several hours at a strech. My nights( or days )seem to start between 2-3am and go until 9pm the next night when I can finally fall into bed. Its not just the crying, but this child of ours fights sleeping no matter what! His eyes could be rolling into the back of his head but dang it if he will sleep. Ive come to know that it takes sometimes hours to get him to fall asleep and that sleep can last a few minutes so whenever this does happen, I race around like a mad woman to get anything done. We do everything they say to do with a colicy baby- white noise, swaddle, shushing( this does work during his hysterics ) etc etc. I think that because Jonathan was gone yesterday, and last night and I didnt get my usual few breaks during the day, Im especially worn out. I know this will pass, but I often ask myself how can a little baby go WITHOUT sleep? Jonathan often comes to bed around midnight / 1am( to give me 9-2am sleep) and he tells me its not usually till then will Tristan fall asleep, but if thie kid is up for me around 2 or three and OFTEN doesnt go back to sleep how is this kid surviving?