I cant believe I haven’t written about this yet…I think in
part because of disbelief and part not wanting to jinx it in any way. However the big news is that we are pregnant
again! Its been a year since the
miscarriage and weve been trying ever since…so this was a bit shocking. We had made an appointment with a fertility
clinic and had our first meeting to discuss next steps when a week later …low
and behold a spontaneous pregnancy!( which is what the fertility clinic called
it J)
The good news is that unlike last time where I felt great
and knew deep down something was up…this time…im sick as sick can be! We’ve already had three ultrasounds and heard
the heartbeat which is strong- the baby is starting to look like a baby and all is going well. The downside is Im brought back to reality
which is: why are we doing this
again? I hate being pregnant, sick with
not a lot of relief( Zofran isn’t working this time) and wondering how in the
world can I take care of 3 kids and work?( which I will keep doing) But I am reminded again that difficult times(
sleepless nights, morning sickness, toddler years) do fade quickly and having
our family complete and full is a true blessing. We will figure out all the
logistics just like each time before, and things work themselves out. They always have. Jonathan believes it’s a girl, while I am
convinced that I will have 3 boys. A
part would love to think a girl will join the family but honestly considering
the challenges we have had in getting here, healthy baby trumps anything in my
mind.
Guess when this baby is due? Guess---Guess….Thanksgiving!! haha.
Seriously its funny. 3 out of my
4 children will be born within days of eachother along with my birthday. I guess there is something about Feb and me
having thanksgiving babies.
The boys are really excited and Tristan is especially
cute. He yells at my belly saying “ I
love you baby!” He hasn’t figured out quite yet that its going to be in there
for a while. He has asked almost daily
if the baby is coming out soon. I think
Elijiah is in a great place now…older and understanding about the new addition
so there isn’t the same jealously there was when Tristan came along. It was a hard adjustment to being my only, to
having me married with another baby so quickly….this time he seems genuinely
happy.
Another thing to note, while Jonathan hates to see me sick
he often has a look of relief when I tell him so..like if I start to feel good
then perhaps there will be problems…so again while I am suffering through this
I do think it’s a good sign. I haven’t
left the couch or bed beyond my daily obligations. much- the house? Its become a bit scary really.... Running?
HA! Ive gone on one walk in the last 12 weeks and was tired after a mile. I
did try and jog as I thought it would be okay- but my stomach felt like a 10
pound weight in it and my bladder didn’t like me much and I was WAY exhausted
after a few minutes. I was a bit sad. Ive missed running over the winter and the
warm weather is so nice…I always look forward to running in the summer. Its hard to imagine that I ran far into my
pregnancy with Noel, but ever since, with both boys, I haven’t been able to do
it past a few weeks in. As soon as I
feel better I will be getting myself back in shape…being my last pregnancy and
being older, I know that losing the weight will be that much harder if I
don’t. I think walking and light weights
will be fine.
12 week ultrasound...legs, and arms were moving all around...:)
MMM I think that is about it as far as pregnancy updates and
where things are. Excited, nervous,
worried, relief…things are good.
